Usually on a Monday night, someone drives me home after the gym but for the past couple months in previous Monday nights, he seemed to be in a hurry, not really wanting to be there and looked unhappy about it. So I drove in today, and I'm so used to having conversations on Monday night with him but even if I didn't drive in, we wouldn't have talked anyway because he doesn't want to be there. I guess it was different driving home tonight, I feel fine and I'm happy you know. But i guess I'll just miss our post gym conversations, to be perfectly honest with you, I actually looked forward to Mondays because I'd get to see/ speak to you considering your schedule and mine, Monday nights were just our nights.

I guess it won't be like that anymore because once again, your schedule is changing and mine is always rearranging. 

Oh well, I'll survive, I suppose. 

I guess the easiest way to put it is, I miss you. It's been different lately, sometimes good but mostly bad. 

On another note, whilst I was speaking to a friend at the gym today, she was taking about moving on from someone she had fancied for a long time. After discussion, it made me realize that 1. She was absolutely right and 2. I needed to stop lying to myself about the fact that it's over.

There's a point that you reach when you know you just need to move on because you've put in a lot of effort into your relationship and it just feels one sided.

When you keep waiting and waiting just to be shot down by them continuously, that's when you should get your act together and move on. 

Realize, that when you deserve to be treated better than that, that you need to move on.