Monday, January 13, 2014 5:12 AM
Letting go
Each every single time, of all the many times I look back at your photos, buddy, i will always cry. But this time it won't be for the same reason. As much as I miss having you around and as much as I wish you could be here with us, what we did was for the best. I look at the photos knowing that you were happy and you made us so extremely happy as well. To watch you struggling as much as you were, it made me miserable and more miserable knowing that we kept you going through that pain for so long. You were the most loyal thing I've ever had. But for the amount of pain you were in, it was better this way than to watch you struggle more and more. I just wish that we got to spend more time with you.
A person of equal importance as you has made me realize that as much as I can mourn over you and cry over the pain you went through, I know that you know you've lived a life with a family who loves you unconditionally and have you everything we could. We may have not been able to give you absolutely everything, but it was all we, more specifically, everything I had.
I love you buddy, and I hope that all that pain that you suffered has been eased.